Tonight’s post will be absolute babble… Just thought fragments and a title that doesn’t fit the text… I’ve just seen it written on a wall and remembered a girl in a movie, called Ruby Mae, also Ruby Tuesday’s and so on… Not to speak of the stone itself… “And I sent you away, oh Ruby…”
Anyhow…
Le’s see…
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Some of my favourite answers to idiotic questions:
Q: Where have you been (after just going out for like 10 minutes to buy something from the 24/7 in the corner)?
A: To Japan.
Q: Whom are you speaking to (on the phone)?
A: Michael Madsen (like, heck, if I wanted you to know, I would’ve told you, hello?)
Q: What are you doing right now (someone asking on the phone)?
A: Oh, just resolving some personal issues (if I don’t feel like sharin’ what I’m doing right now).
Q: What are you thinkin’ of?
A: Well, heck again, if I wanted you to know I would’ve told you, jeez…
Q: Where are you (asked on the phone, if we aren’t supposed to meet)?
A: Oh somewhere in the crepuscular zone… Heck (AGAIN), does it really matter where I am?
Had some better ones last nite, but I forgot some of them. 
One other thing I really can’t stand is walking on the street with someone and them telling you: You should put your sweater on, it’s really cold. Jeez. Don’t you think I know when I’m cold, unless I’m runnin a fever of some sort?
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Also tonight I have no idea what I’m searching for exactly. Half of me wants to be left alone by like 90% of the people around, the other half wants to be cuddled and understood. I don’t get it.
What is this thing I’m searching for exactly?
Is it mind distraction? Is it pleasure, or maybe comfort?
Wait, I know… I want to win a tournament. NOW. That is what I want. I want IT. NOW.
This thought came clearly to my head tonight, after trying to understand what it is that I want and need, and after missing the top 16 at the tournament again – by only one match. It shall now become one of my top goals. Enough with getting almost there. ENOUGH I SAY! I want to be top 16. NOW.
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And I had more to say, but I again don’t remember what it was. I’m guessing a bath with Lush’s Kharma bubble might just help, so I could be back later. 
