I’m supposed to be in bed now, but I decided to read Cosmo before I went to bed and got pissed off for the thousand billion time.
Pissed off at the human being that is… I also have realized recently that I might just be a people uhmmm, let’s not say hater… I dislike people. Most people. Practically all people lately. So there’s probably something wrong with me not them. Although I don’t dislike the peeps at Starbucks, not even when they don’t throw in freebies. I also don’t dislike a couple of other people.
Sometimes I even feel bad, because I like to speak out what I think and right now what I think is that I couldn’t possibly be givin’ less of a rat’s arse. I mean… I know I’d probably screw up more on my own, but I suppose to some extent that’s better than havin’ other people helpin’ you screw up.
Anyhow, I’m gettin’ lost in words again. Uhmmm… I am sooooooo tired with this whole Mumbo JUMBO regarding relationships…
No, girl, you shouldn’t send that TEXT. He’ll know you’re all over him. No, girl, don’t text him too much. No, boy, don’t tell her you like her.
Truth is the more you dislike someone, the more they’ll come after you and the opposite. Thing is they have to like you a bit before they come after you if you don’t like them. Oh and they will come, but what’s the use if you don’t like them to start with? Also… If you like someone why would you say you don’t? Why do kids say they don’t like someone when they actually do? Where does that whole shabang start? Someone once tried answering this question for me, but I don’t remember the answer. Shame? I don’t know. Stupid anyway.
What’s up with this? There’s nothing new ’bout that, I know, and I could use some comments, but none of you people do that on this site so why bother askin’ for them…
I’m soooooooo tired with people’s opinions on things. Everybody’s got their own opinion and they’re most likely sticking to it. And, pardon me, if you’re not Dr. Bloody Cox (jeez that sounds bad lol) then I don’t bloody wanna know your opinion. I really don’t. DO NOT, SUSAN. DO NAWT. Sometimes I wonder why I even bother askin’ for opinions or listenin’ anyway. Sure, I have to agree, at times they’re useful, but I am soooooooo so tired. And that “Heaven isn’t a place on earth, people are here” is a successful candidate for being my motto these days.
So again… You know what? If you like someone bloody go for it. If you wanna text them, text them. If you wanna tell them you love them, tell them. What could you possibly lose? We lose things every single day. We lose precious things, we lose people we love, we sometimes even lose ourselves and our lives.
What could you possibly get? A restraining order?
Now you listen to me. You’re you and that’s what you’ll always be. Whomever will like you will like you for what you are as a whole (try and read that fast and with an italian accent, like the joke with the forks LOL, just noticed), and even if they’ll dislike some things… If the relationship is a good one it will live. Even if you send a text at 4 am or decide to say I love you too soon. It might not always go the way you want it to go, you might get hurt, lots of things might happen. But they’ll happen anyway, then or some other time… So why not go for it?
Anyway… I know it’s sooooooo much easier said than done, but start with something easy. Tell the guy at Starbucks you like his shirt.
Pay someone you like a compliment. Ask someone what they think about the weather. Oh and SMILE. SO, SO, SMILE. Not that someone will fall in love with your smile, but a smile says so many things. And it’s so lovely and it can even make someone’s day.
After a tough period in my life I have discovered that I had thoughts I didn’t recognize. I simply couldn’t understand when on earth did I start thinking like that. On the brink of madness.
Also some of us are obsessive compulsive. So what? Does that mean we shouldn’t text because we scare other people?
I believe in “harm none”. But that’s not such an easy job. Actually it’s probably the toughest job out there. So are you willing to sacrifice yourself to harm none (wait, in that case you’d actually hurt yourself :-/)? Hurt is present everywhere. It’s the way we deal with it that changes things. It’s the importance we grant it and the amount present. It’s so, so many things.
The human being is so complicated that for now I really don’t want to solve the puzzle anymore. I really don’t care. And I’m not bitter. I just don’t care. I don’t even wanna solve my own puzzle. Who cares anyway?
Just take one moment at a time for it’s the only one you might get. Repeat this sentence if necessary. Repeat it over and over again. It will eventually stick with you.
And now I’m ending my rant with declaring my admiration for Magritte’s work. A painter I’ve never heard of before (I really enjoy art, but I’m not a “learner” when it comes to it. Yep, ignorant, I know), but thanks to Google I discovered him today. Thanks, Google! Lovely, Magritte. The piece below is called “the lovers”. Me likee.
I suppose that’s that for tonight. Mmyeah. I’m probably gonna add a song and then hit the sack. Well. G’nite.
P.S. I’d also like to greet my readers from the ends of the earth, as spotted on the map of souls. =))))))))) Think I’ve had one from Australia and one from Japan. =) Make yerselves comfortable.
Do you dislike me?
Jordan avea o vorba legata de asta. I don’t hate you, I nothing you.
Da’ nu e cazu’. 