Today I am cold, alone and lost.
I didn’t think I’d post for a while and I sincerely have no idea on why I’m writing this. It may be very short or very long, I haven’t decided yet.
Today I wish I’d be able to stop thinking.
Today I wish I weren’t myself.
Today I miss myself.
Today I miss someone else. But why would it matter anyway?
Today I am cold, alone and lost. I have lost myself.
I feel so bad that I can’t even begin to think about it, nor share it.
Today a relationship’s been cut and another snake appeared, yet again.
Today I am full of hatred towards lots of people. I wanted to do a piece on hate & love, but I don’t see the use for it anymore.
I do not understand myself right now and, although some people do understand me – I have no idea how they can.
Today I am bewildered and appalled.
And if vomiting wasn’t an action, but an image and a mental state, then today that is the KEY WORD. My whole soul and mind and whatever is there, except for my body (funnily enough my body don’t wanna throw everything out), can only be described today by this: 
So I don’t know when I’ll write again… It may be tomorrow or next week or even later than next week.
And I’d also like to thank the peeps who’ve been reading my posts. I will be back you guys.
hey Liz, I just wanted to tell you to hang in there, everything takes place in our lives for a reason. I actually found a quote in terms of suffering recently by an author who went by the name of Meister Eckhart (I edited my suffering post later with the new content) which has to do with misfortune.
I know your true nature, and although you may feel like you don’t know yourself, well does anyone really know themselves on an individual level, or do we only know the idea of ourselves that is given to us. I know can comfortably say that this body is only the product of habits and concepts that its picked up.
I encourage you to (when you feel better or maybe not even, but while you experience it) to write about love and hate. But also, there was an indian guru who described love/hate as more like/hate. Because if it were True Nature which outwardly appears as unconditional love shows no suffering. So there is a mix up between the body and what love is, and that love does no cause suffering ever. Anything else that causes suffering most likely is attachment or a finite state, because love transcends such finite states.
Love is your Nature, you need not worry, for all will work out.
(also sorry i haven’t gotten to your blog lately, i’ve been busy and tired, school wise… I haven’t had the energy to do much on the net haha)
Thank you, liberatedself. Although I’m probably too egotistical, hopeful and mind-body centered to accept this (everything’s naturally good) for a long time to come.