Today’s wee (or not) post will be about more than one thing.
First… It’s been a while since someone said “You” to me. You with a capital letter. “You” in the middle of a sentence with a capital letter that is. Not You as in “You, master”, but “You” as in “You”, You extraordinary being, my angel, my morning sweetness.
I miss it. Well sometimes. Yeah. It’s been lovely. Bygone.
Second… Quick congratulations to Heath Ledger (thank goodness!), Sean Penn and Kate Winslet for winning the Oscars. I am pleased.
Third AND MOST IMPORTANT: Today was a great day. The day itself wasn’t so brilliant, but my attitude was. I woke up with my regular “Awwwww meh, yuck, no, noo, leave me aloooooooooone.” And everything started going cuckoo as usual. There was no juice, I failed to go where Iwas supposed to go this morning, I didn’t wanna see anyone, hear almost anyone and so on.
And then I decided to arrange my hair, put on some make up which went on 
great, and decided to put on my gorgeous Matrix coat for the very first time. And then (yes for the 109 time “and then”) I felt great. Just like that. I was all prepped up, just for myself and my pleasure, because that’s what I wanted, and it’s been hurting lately that I haven’t been able to take care of myself much, failing to do the things I used to love doing before, so my brain just relaxed. Just like that. With one tiny detail it needed.
Now I don’t know for sure what clicked, or what button I pushed, but something did. And from then on everything went well today.
Attitude changed everything. People around me smiled more, been nicer, doors started opening and the sun started shining. Just like in “law of attraction.” I believe they smiled before too, but I just couldn’t see them through clouds of disbelief and foggy pain.
And about this “law of attraction”… I believe the documentary (that I’ve watched ages ago) should be taken in a certain way. When you watch it the first time you feel like it ain’t possible and everything can’t change in magic ways. But I don’t think it’s about magic ways. It’s about two possibilities: Being negative or being positive. Life might eat you anyway so what have you got to lose? It’s your choice, really.
When my dad passed away I was in the middle of the process, after having seen the documentary for the second time, and when I failed to bring him back by thinking positive, I just stopped. The hit was too big.
Thinking positive isn’t about saving someone, getting a room at the Ritz, having a truck of cash dumping its load on yer front porch, marrying a super star and so on. Thinking positive is a way of life and a decision that it goes as good as you’ll be able to make it go. 
My brain likes to be right. So when negative thinking is on *and you might not even notice it being on* it just sees crap in almost everything. And when something really good actually happens and it can’t ignore it, it makes me grab it, become posessive and crazy about losing it. And then it says “I told you so.”
But when it’s positive, it can find positivity even in negative things. Even when you bump into someone by mistake, many things can get solved with a positive attitude. Maybe not all of them, but in the end it does pay off…
So it’s one’s choice. I just hope I’ll be able to keep this positivity tomorrow too.
It’s also important to try and not find positivity in things around you, even if that’s what you see, feel
and so on. It’s important to try and find it within yourself. And try and keep it regardless of what happens. I have to insist that it eventually pays off.
And, as a friend of mine would put it, it’s also very important what people are gathered around you. Because you should only be with people you care for and people who are quite positive, if you’re looking for a positive way of being.
So today at the first wave of negativity I felt from someone, instead of keeping my mouth shut, as I sometimes do with some people, I just argued for no more than 2 minutes (as when I do argue, although I argue with only one person, I argue for much more) and then said “alright, goodbye.” And I was off. Not gave it one more thought. It’s important to cut negativity low, especially when you’ve just regained a part of positivity.
We’re not trained to be Neo. We have to train ourselves. And, like warriors, if you keep on getting hit, you gotta have a shield, otherwise you get killed. You can’t just let people step all over you. Not even if you love them madly. You can compromise, but not forever. Unless you’re sure you want to sacrifice yourself and take it as it is.
Again… It all starts with YOU. EVERYTHING. You should remember that.
And now I’m off, coz I see there’s a new episode of CSI on. OooOooO, cheeky. 
I didn’t see Melina Kanakaredes yet, hope they didn’t ditch her. If they did, I don’t know if I’ll watch it anymo’. She’s so coo’. Like a sister I’ve never had. And last nite I watched a new episode of Dr. Cox (I just won’t call it Scrubs anymore ;P) . God he’s so coo’. 
CHeeeeeeeeky. Goodnite.
Oh and p.s. The erratic posts I’ve mentioned in one of my earlier posts are still coming in the upcoming days. Written them already, but didn’t manage to put them online.
p.p.s. The CSI ain’t new. Bloody *****… :(
Hey Liz,
So very right you are, it does all come down to you and what you do with it, is what counts. I’m glad that you’re able to relish in the new train of thought, that the ignorance of previous learning takes the back seat. Clearing out ignorance in ones own being, is pure Love for the Self. It merely redirects the mind to its True Nature, and like you said, we can either be extremely negative to ourselves and thus the natural outcome will be that everything is seen from a negative point of view or we can realize that everything happens as it happens and its not the fact that its positive or negative but is, and that its natural outcome is tranquil and therefore you are tranquil (or silent, which seems unneventful but is indeed a good state to be in)
The world is only a notion of the ignorance of the mind, the more The Self is realized in the Self the less effect it has on your True Nature.
I also agree with law of attractions, it isn’t magic as much as it seems in certain books like, “The Secret” which is taught to get on positive wavelengths etc. but merely seeing the Real for the Real and dropping the false or understanding the false mechanic and it no longer attracts to you. Love attracts Love so being in that state brings about the creativity of Universal Consciousness.
You are That, I’m here to support you as far as this body has come, Have a wonderful weekend.
Very nice comment.
Didn’t get to say so til now. 
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