Yeah I’d wish.
I just thought it to be a nice title.
I again had some good ideas these days, but didn’t manage to put them in my online diary (?!?!)
I’m not even here, I think.
Boy does this Clarins Satin Oil smell blissful.
Tonight I went to the theater to see “He’s just not that into you”. Cool flick, although it’s just a wee summary of the book, but hey… Tis nice.
As I previously mentioned, decisions belong to you. If you’re doing something that you don’t wanna be doing it’s because of advantages you’re getting, whichever the sort. So, as Dr. Cox would say it – yes, yet again -, “shut it, Susan, and get to work.” You are not OBLIGED to do ANYTHING.
Today I’m somewhat pissed off because my brain caught some overly repeated information and treats it like its own.
I have recently learnt yet again that words mean the world. I sometimes wish we’d all talk through signs. And when I say, “it’s not you, it’s me”, then it’s pretty much you and the way you’re affecting me. That stands. LOL
Through my quacking queue of thoughts, I can’t help but wonder… Where’s yer new piece Nick? Where is it? 
I just wish I’d find a word that would magically shut anyone’s mouth or make them say “OK” and then shut up. Not make them do something or love me or hate me or whatever. Just shut up. Simple, huh?
I wish I had a voice like the one Dr. Dorian wants. A little voice which would tell me: Don’t say that, you’re soooo gonna regret it.
I wish she’d be alright.
I wish he’d be back.
I sometimes wish I had no conscience.
And, as someone would put it… I sometimes wish I were the woman who could be a fountain of kindness shadowed by no evil.
But I’m not. I am who I am and that’s pretty much how it goes.
Tha’s just who I am, ma, jus’ who I am. Look, ma, I’m flying!
And I’m tired of all the bullshit and questioning whether what I’m doing is right or wrong. What I’m doing is just that and that’s about it. Period.
I wish we’d stop talking for a while. Words hurt far too much, especially in a stressful climate, even if you don’t want to hurt the other person.
So maybe if we loved someone, we could just hug them, if we’re neutral, we could just stand there, and if we hate someone, then we could just walk away or punch them in the face.
I dig that much more than words. ***** words.
You keep on trying to prove to yourself (above all) that what you’re doing is right or wrong.
Just bloody stop. It just is. That’s what YOU are doing. That’s all.
So whatever it is that you are doing or whomever it is that you are, just do it proudly.
Do remember, as Nick would say, that everything (or most things) are just second hand information. I know it’s hard to remember that most of the times, but hey… Just don’t stress yourself out on everything. And don’t consider yourself to be wrong or right. You’re only wrong or right according to what you’ve learnt so far, the medium you live in and the body that is your vessel. That’s all.
And if you never would’ve learnt what fear is, par example, you’d never feel it. What you don’t know doesn’t affect you. And if your body would never hurt then you wouldn’t know what pain is. And if death wouldn’t exist then you wouldn’t be scared of it. Or not be scared of it, for that matter.
Just breathe. You are YOU and that’s all that matters. And you’re the only one who’ll be YOU forever. Just you. 
That’s all.
And here I end another piece of blabber. Perhaps I’ll write something decent soon.
Apologies.
Moi.
