Here’s another boring post that will contain all sorts of things I’ve been thinking about lately. I do have a good text I’ve written a wee while ago, but I’m gonna post that tomorrow so y’all don’t say I don’t post everyday… 
Well every once in a while that is.
A few days ago I couldn’t help but hear Vonda Shepard’s – Read your mind. In my mind, of course. But I ain’t gonna post it as song of the day… As I just heard a few lyrics, such as: “If I could read your mind, I hope I’d find, say the love I have in mine. If I could go back in time, I’d try to find you and make up for all this waste of time. [...] But am I really free?”
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You know what one of the worst things is? Knowing that you’ve hurt someone you care about. That’s one ****** up thing of the whole human/words/actions/relationships experience. And, you might believe it’s egotistical (as in you don’t wanna lose them) but it’s not. It’s just about not wanting to hurt them.
I mean… How on earth could you possibly ever want to hurt someone you care about? You’d never do it on purpose. So when you do it, and you somehow learn that you ****** up (because, obviously, as it’s unintentional, you don’t know it as you do it) it feels like you’re a bad person. Like you’re unworthy of the friendship. And that’s one crappy feeling for sure. You can’t help but wonder… If you can hurt someone you care about, what chance do people you don’t give a rat’s arse about have? LOL Actually, come to think about it, they might have a better one than the others. Hm… ****** up, I’ll tell ya.
It shadows you as a person, because you feel that if you can hurt someone, even when you care about them, then maybe your whole process of thinking is wrong.
Any ideas on this? Liberatedself? Please? 
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For the past week I’ve been down. And it all culminated with a cold that kept me doped (without drugs lol) for a few days. And no, it’s not the swine flu, for all who may wonder , been to the doc’s. It’s just an alergic thing.
But now I’m feeling better. My beautiful friends at Starbucks granted me with some more freebies. Lurve you guys! That Columbia coffee tastes mighty fine. And in other troubled areas, there might just be a way out… Which is great. Good news. But I’ll have to work on it. However I’m not the kind who’ll say pass to work. Not when I care about something.
I’d say more… Oh… Wait… Last night, as I was down with the cold, I saw two movies and said pass to one. Saw “Tropic thunder” and “Beverly Hills Chihuahua”.
Now Tropic Thunder ain’t as good as they claim it to be. Actually it’s quite boring. But, as one critic would put it, it was hard not to get everyone to laugh, considering the multitude of jokes per minute. So I did laugh. Pretty much. On three different scenes. And Robert Downey Jr. does a very interesting job too. Hugzie Not a must watch though.
As for the Beverly Hills Chihuahua… That’s one pretty cool movie. It is, of course, easy, but nevertheless good for its genre. I especially appreciated the voices of Andy Garcia, as Delgado (one mighty fine german shepherd if you’ll ask me), and of Placido Domingo as Monte. However I didn’t recognize Garcia’s voice, because it’s somewhat harsher… And I think they should’ve used Placido’s voice more. Nevertheless… If only for Garcia and Placido’s voices and presences and for the cute animal action… The movie is cool. I’d recommend it. Especially if you like movies like that (Chipmunks and such).
In the picture below, Andy Garcia, Drew Barrymore and some other dude. I’ll let you guess who’s'who, cause… Well they do look like them, don’t they? LOL
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One film I did say pass to though was The tale of Despereaux. I thought it to be something like Ratatouille (which was quite delicious), but it’s not. I don’t know what this 3d art (or whatever art is used in this flick, as I’m not sure it’s 3d) is all about, but I don’t like it. At least not in this case. And I pretty much didn’t enjoy it in Bolt either. So after the first few scenes… I said pass.
Tomorrow I’m gonna see Tom Hanks in Angels and Demons. I hope it’s good… Anyhew, you gotta love the Hanks. And I can’t wait to see Keanu Reeves in a new flick. Simply love the dude. The blockbuster master. And I’d pretty much enjoy seeing Tom Cruise in a new flick too. Not like the crap political one he’s done last aka Lions and Lambs. I’d love to see Keanu and Tom in new action or romance flicks. I think they suit them best. Blockbuster masterrrrrrrrrrs. Oh and btw, I think it’s time they did a flick together. Certified………………………………………
And that’s about it. I will come back with a good piece on YOU, as a person. A second You, my darling, you.
You forgot our beloved Madsen piece.
What Madsen piece?
Michael Madsen piece. Bucata! Uof…
Lizzy,
There actually are some thoughts on this that I’ve been wrestling with for awhile.
and I think you’re on to something when you say that the ones we do not care about have a better chance then the ones that we do care about. The hurt doesn’t come in the fact that you may have actually hurt the one you care about, it comes from your own sense of attachment to the person.
To be attached to someone is like being addicted to a drug in a sense, and when that balance is upset it causes yourself to suffer, because of this feeling of “love” you may have for them, which in reality is only a fraction of what actually is love. Love is like the rose that gives its fragrance to all, it doesn’t ask for anything in return and therefore there is no exception to its giving.
Anyway to our attachments to these people (this isn’t to say to not be close to anyone) but the negative feelings comes from the fact that we had an idea of someone and they did not meet our vision of themselves. This is were the conflict begins, because there would be no hurt ever to begin with if you accepted someone for exactly who they are to begin with. But humans have this idea that others have to bow to their images of them. In a sense this becomes selfish, even if you care deeply for them, you do not see them in reality, and this is where the disruption occurs. Because we do not see them for that beauty that they are we feel we need to change them to our image and when it doesn’t work out the hurting begins, and then because of the hurting, we feel convicted ourselves because of our attachment to them. Do you see the cycle? It doesn’t work, it just simply does not work, not like it should, it is not like the rose that gives its scent indiscriminately to all.
You can learn a lot from nature, The tree gives shade, the sun gives light, the flower gives its scent. This is how we should be towards each other.
But like you said, its shadows you like a dark cloud. I think that getting rid of the illusion that your idea about things is constant and truth, and dropping bias is a healthy step. Seeing things for what they are, being in touch with Reality, and enjoying each persons vibration for their flavor but on a non clinging basis.
Let me know if that makes sense or not or if you need clarification, i don’t proof read what i type most of the time lol, so some times i need to narrow my directions!
Final word: “Awareness” watch your programming and how it reacts, don’t act on the programming but take note of it and understand where its coming from. <3
It makes sense, but…
How can you not be clingy, when being clingy is as natural as being loving to all?
All our lives we get addicted. Starting with air. We’re addicted to air, because otherwise we wouldn’t survive. You might not see it as an addiction, but I do. We get addicted to water. To food. They’re natural addictions, but nevertheless addictions. And just because if we quit any other addiction, but these, doesn’t kill us, that doesn’t make the addiction to life sustaining elements any less of an addiction.
So in the quest for peace and harmony, which I’m going to speak of very soon in a new text I’ve been constructing for a while, you can’t deny your nature, no?
I get what you’re saying, I’m just stating things aren’t that easy and there’s lots to talk about on this subject.
Of course it isn’t easy hehe, otherwise we would all be like The Buddha.
As for clingy nature, it isn’t part of our nature, clinginess’ root comes from the fact that the human believes that it needs that thing to sustain it’s happiness and if it doesn’t have it then it will withhold its own happiness from itself thinking that, that will fix the problem. How silly and selfish is that of yourself? Its one of those beliefs in logic that would be labeled as “common sense” but who ever said that common sense worked, maybe sometimes, but it never consistently works, and hasn’t. So if it was truth, then why does it still cause suffering?
I’m trying to come from the stand point of addiction in your case, in respect to air and water, which sustain the bodies life, which air and water are Nature at its very essence where as other addictions are more or less impositions on the body to cause a selfish reaction. These addictions are not natural although this doesn’t mean to say they are bad, they are just unnecessary. If the body is involved in them, it is involved but just watch them, see what their programming is, see what it really gives the body, let them drop off, they always do, they aren’t necessary for the body to sustain life. So you can refer to Nature as addiction, that is fine, its your representation and its a respectful stance, but just be aware of it and treat it with care.
Like i said in an answer to your comment, its not about refusing the clinginess or addiction in a proactive attempt to get rid of it, but give it the attention it needs, as in, take note of it without doing anything or something. To turn something away only makes the urge stronger but understanding it instantaneously dissolves it.
It’s only as hard as you believe it to be, you are the sole one that can break that bond. So maybe it doesn’t seem easy, but you have that power to make it easy, its just a matter of wanting to see or not.
“Programming is like a child throwing a tantrum in a toy store, he kicks and he screams until he gets the toy that he wants.”
What would we do in this situation?