Here’s a text I’ve written last weekend:
This weekend I’ve been connection free. And I might be even more connection free soon. But I don’t think I’ll quit on the blog. I might just schedule some texts then.
Today I am beautiful. A beautiful cat. And completely relaxed thanks to a particular kind of music.
I’ve had so many thoughts this weekend… So many thoughts I wished to share with y’all and so many I wished nobody would ever find out. Did I write anything? No, of course not. Sometimes I am either so overwhelmed or so lazy that I don’t write a thing. I just don’t see the point, as I explained in my OCD text.
Today I remembered Jim Carrey and his information highway in Cable guy. Our brain is an information highway. We’re never thoughtless, although some would argue to the contrary. It would be so amazing to have access to someone’s brain… Well other than yours of course. To see the information/feelings/chemical reactions (and so on) potpourri.
Also today I looked into my eyes, thanks to a mirror I have placed close to the computer, by mistake. Well initially by mistake, but then the narcissist in me decided that place to be the best one for a mirror. LOL
So I looked into my eyes… “And I had two big square eyes…” 
Well, not quite… Anyway. Again… I looked into my eyes… And, as I looked mighty fine, I couldn’t help but smile. LOL And when I smiled… I saw a kindness inside that I haven’t seen in a long while now. And whether tomorrow will bring me joy or sorrow, one thing I know for sure. I definitely have the power to make things happen.
I have promised y’all a great text. I have it on paper, but I failed to put it on screen. I apologise. I will do so very soon. And it will be surely worth reading. Not like this mumbo jumbo I’m writing now.
Funnily enough, we all search for high positions, high achievements, when all we’d have to search for is the light within ourselves. I dream to be the empress… The empress of something great… But, until a wee while ago, I never dreamt to be the empress of myself. For that’s the greatest you can be. You may rule other people and be a complete sucker. But when you rule yourself. Then you’re the biggest winner you could ever be. As I’ve said before, and will say it over and over again… That’s the biggest battle you could ever dream of winning, the best friendship you could ever dream of having, the only thing that is crucial. It might be considered egotistical, but, as long as you’re not kicking others on the way… I don’t understand why it would be seen that way. Bottom line is…Regardless of the awards, battles or money that you’ve won. You, yourself, you’re the only thing you got when you leave this planet.
The previous paragraph is something you’re likely to read in my second “You, my darling, you.”
We also have three quotes for today…
Everything’s got a momentum.
Trust myself? You must be joking. Trust you? Uhm… Yea. LOL
My name is Maximus Decimus Meridius.
I know exactly how you feel about thoughts not getting written down and i think its healthy to get away from the technological connection. It gives you a chance to just get in touch more with the beauty of reality, I’ve been going on alot of walks lately (I don’t know the cause, maybe because college is done for now or maybe not) but its so delightful to just be around creation itself, that you could learn so much more then cooping ourselves up in a room all day.
Sometimes I wonder about thought though. Sometimes it just seems meaningless to get thought on paper, ultimately knowing that I’m distorting reality by merely trying to explain something that isn’t explainable initially, i figure, “what’s the point in trying, if everyone needs to see for themselves, they just can’t take my word for it.” Maybe you can help me out on this thought lizzy.
Also…
“Bottom line is…Regardless of the awards, battles or money that you’ve won. You, yourself, you’re the only thing you got when you leave this planet.”
Lovely. =]
I hope you and I can one day do a collaboration on something. I Don’t know what yet, but something, I think it would be a lot of fun ^_^
As for the help with the thought… I’m afraid I can’t, as I feel the same way, maybe for different reasons though.
for some reason, i kind of had a feeling that you and I felt somewhat the same about it in some way.
Let me know if any thought comes up that you would like to collaborate on, I need something to do during this summer haha!