Today it hit me. Never expected it to come. In connection to the “painful sweetness” area of this blog… Maybe I need closure. Maybe it’s time to let go of the past. I wonder if I’ll be able to let go though. As I said, I’ve just realized that may be the answer to a [...]
Archive for the 'Painful sweetness' Category
Painful sweetness at the end?
December 16, 2009The real deal – passage :P
July 18, 2009Holding the meaning of truth… The way things were and are most likely never to be again. Most likely only because one can’t stand the thought of finality. Oh, dang, I’ll say it. The way things were and will never be again. Not ever. In another world? Some other time and some other place? I [...]
OoOoOoO baby
July 4, 2009This is the second text in the “moments of my life” cathegory. It’s raining and I miss him. Haven’t missed him this bad in ages. But I’m listening to Belinda Carlisle’s – Heaven is a place on earth… And this song simply says his name, together with the rain outside. I feel like poofing myself. [...]
“They’re everywhere, they’re everywhere”
June 16, 2009It’s 12 pm. I turn on my computer and one of the first things I do is check my e-mail. It’s a private e-mail, one almost nobody has. At least not someone who’d know it’s me. I check it every single day, if I can. I secretly (well maybe one or two people know) hope [...]
Quickie
June 15, 2009In the past weeks, especially while being on the road and internet + tv free, I’ve missed two people. I’ve been missing them every single day. And a third person has been on my mind too. Every single day I find items, thoughts, images, words, smells that remind me of them. And the missing always [...]
Sometimes…
April 14, 2009“I run, sometimes I cry… Sometimes…” I get so romantic… Lately I’ve been trying to escape my thoughts. Isn’t it funny that when you drown yourself in work you don’t get many thoughts? Bygone. Anyhow… Been trying to escape my thoughts and I have sort of succeeded. But this rainy afternoon… I’m listenin’ to Swing [...]
The bump
March 26, 2009Today I bumped my head into a mailbox. Don’t ask. Remember when I told you to pay attention when you have an avalanche of tears? When you start cryin’ and suddenly it gets heavier because you start remembering everything that’s currently upseting you? Well the bump was pretty heavy so, with my agreement or not, [...]
OCD, writing and bla
February 5, 2009Now I don’t know if this post will be cool, or understandable, but here goes nothing… Today I remembered the time when I didn’t want to say anything anymore… I still get that feeling sometimes, but I believe everything’s different now… See, a while ago, I didn’t want to write anymore… I saw no point [...]
Thoughts of the day
January 6, 2009I do not hold illusions anymore. I know there is not one innocent bone in my body, not one innocent cell. As for my soul? *sigh* I wish I knew it… Maybe we would’ve been good friends. S*rew perception.
The sadness collection
December 29, 2008Here are some videos for all you emos out there… I think the vids are pretty cool and I can’t find my notebook so why nawt. Speaking of which… I can’t help but wonder… Why is it that when you’re depressed or simply sad or negative people think there’s something wrong with you. A very [...]
