Never looked at a flying plastic bag the same way I used to, after that… And, remember… “Today is the first day of the rest of your life.”

Another important paradox is the one between good and evil. The fight between two opposites goes on in all of us and in almost everything in the world. There are two opposites in everything, whether it’s good and evil, yin and yang, life and death. And I do believe and hope that somehow, someway, we’re to understand that, eventually, there has to be harmony, mostly because everything is relative (aka what for one is total evil, for someone else is the greatest good).

The paradox is: The opposite things shouldn’t fight against each other. Neither of them will go away, neither are clear on their own and they’re all relative.

(hope I used “paradox” correctly, lol)

(Don’t know to whom it belongs, took it from Melani Word – maybe she said it. Anyway, nice quote. )

It is known that the biggest mind distraction is sex. I often make rude comments to fellow forumists (obviously on a forum), by the likes of: Yes, you could ponder over that bla bla you’re on about, or and this is a BIG OR, you could just have mind blowing sex. Problem solved. Next !

Now, after reading some more stuff, I realize that sex is not only a huge releaser of particular substances in the body (as endorphins and such, and stop fooling yourself that exercise or chocolate will ever make up for it), but you also do not think during it. That’s what some people like to call “stopping the voice in your head”. 

Life is made out of endless decisions. We constantly have so many thoughts that they become overwhelming. So many questions, so many ideas, so many ways to do things… Times we’re scared, times we’re happy and don’t want to lose it. Times we ponder upon the meaning of life like we’d know anything. LOL Times when we can solve problems (and drown in fame) and times when there’s nothing we can do about problems and we sob.

But if you cleared your mind… If you didn’t have one thought… What bliss that is. What perfect bliss.

They say ignorance is bliss. I think they do have a point.

So should you live your life having mind blowing experiences, over and over and over again, in the “chaotic” style I was speaking of? Everybody yearns for mind distraction, from the janitor to Bill Gates, from the woman with a moustache to Angelina Jolie, from the kid playing with his toys to the grown up releasing through video games (and much more).

So if everything we yearn for is mind distraction… Is that not the ultimate goal? To be as distracted as you can for the rest of your life?

There are numerous ideas pointing to this… Par example… If you get angry with someone and don’t let it out at them immediately, you may learn later that the anger has gone or at least softened.

However if we all were to lose ourselves in mind distraction, who would’ve invented cures for diseases? Who would’ve invented viruses? Who would’ve invented marvellous or terrible things?

Nobody, but…

Apart from having to work for a living (assuming you want to live, although technically nobody’s making you live), what else stops you from drowning in mind distraction and forgetting all about the complexity of this world and most of the “second hand information”?

“I didn’t lose my mind, it was mine to give away…”

Going back to basics… That’s what it is. Well the basics of living and the basics of the same “second hand information”, but basics nevertheless.

What’s so wrong with that, instead of tormenting yourself with questions you’ll never answer and truths you’ll never find (mostly because they’re already there)?

Now my mind’s sayin’: “But, but… What would I be if not for my knowledge, for my questions, for my truths?”

Yeah… What would you be? You? LOL You’d still be you. But a more torment free you.

“But, but… What about excellence, achieving and such?”

Yes, what… Do you come with a label that says “become excellent, achieve and such…”? LOL

“But, what about staying safe and such?”

Well nobody makes ya live… I have stated that before. And ONLY THE STRONG SURVIVE, yet again. It’s pretty much the law. As for control and security – Still fiction, as Hellen Keller would put it.

Maybe what the samurai achieve isn’t so different. What chaotic people do through pleasure injection, samurai do through mind detachment. How’s that for an answer? Same goal, different ways.

“So what do you mean? The whole purpose of life is ignoring ourselves?”

I’m afraid I don’t have an answer to that. I’m tired with searching for answers. Answers to what?

Men understood that they have to seek for pleasure, ditch pain and avoid death (aka the unknown).

It’s common inflicted law (by one way or the other).

Par example, I don’t want anyone to throw mud at me and call me a shame to society. I don’t want my career thrown to dust. I don’t want anything thrown to dust. I like those things = pleasure. I lose those things = pain. Makes sense?

So that’s pretty much what we do, whether it is our goal or not. Avoid pain, seek pleasure, avoid death (which again is supposed to be painful as it’s a step into the unknown).

Could it also be a vicious circle? Getting pleasure, avoiding pain, losing pleasure, getting pain?

So basically what I am saying is get as much pleasure as possible, face pain and screw death – you can‘t avoid them anyway.

Is that a truth, a goal? I have no idea. Lately I’m failing to see the meaning of life, really. I keep on thinking and thinking about it and simply CANNOT see it. Not unless you “think”, which is obviously a waste of time (at a particular extent). Thinking practically resumes at choosing to live or die. Easier said than done.

And there’s surely some bugger who won’t read this till the end because it’s boring. And they’re correct. It’s all boring thinking.

One last idea: I know I’ve talked about seeking pleasure, facing pain and death, but let’s get back to what we started. MIND DISTRACTION. THAT IS KEY. Call it detachment if you will.

Oh and one last, last thing… Why struggle when you can just let go?

And one last, last, last thing… Maybe in the end, mind distraction is just a way of fooling the body that it’s all ok. I don’t know. Who cares? You do not think of such things when distracted, you do not care, you do not talk about the fight club.

To quote on Jack… “What if this is as good as it gets?” No answer, no goal, no truth. Nothing, as someone else would say.

End of story.

Part of this text has been erased. I thought about some things I said and just wasn’t comfortable with them, so I erased them. Apologies.

So I’ve been thinking and I believe there are three types of people. I don’t know if the following classification is good or not. It’s just my way of seeing things.

The three types are chaotic, normal and samurai.

Normal people do stuff they don’t really want to do (like taking on responsibilities) for most of the week and then they go ahead and inject their pleasure drugs (like whatever’s pleasurable – not necessarily drugs, but not TOO pleasurable) during the evenings and weekends. Therefore they combine pleasure with discipline.

Chaotic people are the opposite of samurai. They try to “inject” as much pleasure as they can. They’d do anything to get out of any sort of responsibility and are most likely to spend their lives trying to achieve pleasure in anyway and as often as possible.

Samurai people are, obviously, the opposite to chaotic. They have discovered detachment from everything and have (or mostly have) expelled pleasure and pain from their lives. The things they live for may be internal peace and contentment with themselves.

Don’t know if I expressed it well, but that’s how I see it, in general terms. I’m thinking about becoming a samurai. That would be a major change and would require great deals of discipline, hard work and meditation.

However I just don’t seem at peace with the idea of giving up satisfaction, because that’s how I see this process going. I mean, what reason would I have to become excellent in a field (whichever that might be) if it wasn’t for satisfaction/pleasure? And is it the best way to achieve excellence?

And last but not least, why would we give up satisfaction and pain, if it’s obvious that our body is into them. After all, our body is that object we use to get by in this world and if the experience was all about achieving peace, then we wouldn’t have so many obstacles. Would we? Hmmm.

Pleasure naturally comes with pain. They’re opposites and, as a friend of mine would say, they contour each other. Regardless of how much pleasure you get, there’ll always be some pain just around the corner, mostly because nothing good lasts forever.

So when you deny pain, you also deny pleasure.

You deny most chemistry = samurai (as far as I see it, need to read some more though).

I find the samurai very beautiful. I guess discovering which way suits you best depends solely on your vision on life and how disciplined you are willing to be.

Anywho, this is not done… I’ll be back on the samurai. Also wrote it a while ago and willn’t check on it again. So do tell if there’s something weird about it.

I just love it when people get so perfect they forget the imperfect crap that they really are. PMSL

Keep in touch… This blog might turn into something else. And tomorrow or later on (well probably), I will reveal some other news. Read all about it.

Funnily enough, the special award I mentioned doesn’t even have anything to do with me, thank goodness. Just with the beautiful mankind and other people.  I have been sort of spared and am extremely thankful.  But I did witness a girl being attacked tonight, by some fuckers who call themselves people. Uh… UHhhhhhhh. My brain is freezing.

Oh and to end this. Let me cast the stone for once… Quote of the day is “You’ll have to excuse Michael, he’s not good at suffering fools.” Guess… (minute 3.06 in the first video for reference).

(Not sure what the real quote was like, as there are more than one versions online, but I like this one so… Yeah.)

Today I’m developing a bit on the harmony subject.

One of the questions I asked myself last night was “What do you exactly mean by harmony?”

Here’s what I answered:

In a world troubled with stress, pain, decisions and monotony, harmony is what can make you face them all easier. Harmony isn’t really a way to feel good, nor is it a way to feel bad. It’s more like a balance between the two. Good and bad are relative, as most things in life are.

Harmony would be easy to achieve if we had the key. As I said before, none of us are born trained Neos. Not even Neo himself. He had to train too. Moreover, before he started to believe in his strengths and work on them, he wasn’t the chosen one.

Now if we had the key, harmony would be very easy to achieve. It’s like making someone solve a mathematics exercise with them seeing numbers for the first time. They’ll have no idea on how to do it. Nevertheless, once they learn a bit of mathematics, everything may just come to sight in the easiest way possible.

So it goes for most things in life, including harmony.

For me, harmony means not caring. Not getting so involved into something that it completely controls you. You’ll never be able to control everything, as control itself is somewhat fiction. However, you can control some things and make them work on your behalf.

Going back to the not caring part… Do you remember how when someone extremely dear to you dies, par example, you feel like dying too? That you feel like nothing matters, as if you’re numb? That’s part of harmony, but without the bad feelings. Being at peace with whatever happens. That’s harmony. Not being scared of anything. Standing by your decisions, your life, yourself.

Harmony means not taking anything to its extremes. A feeling, a situation, a fact of life. Just observing it and choosing to get involved with it or not. Sure, that’s not so easy to do. There will be times, even when in harmony, when you’ll get involved in things which hurt you extremely or please you extremely just because you’re human and chemistry is part of you. Nevertheless, by whole, harmony makes life easier and less of a subject to sudden changes and explosions of whatever sort.

To achieve harmony you must work on it. It’s best if you’re able to take some time off and act like a monk for a while. Find a peaceful place and get to know yourself. It’s again crucial to know yourself. You have to know what ticks for you, what problems you have, what’s easy for you to do and what’s not. What pleases you deeply and what are your biggest fears.

Then you have to meditate on understanding that everything starts and ends with you. Nobody can force you do anything. As I previously said, even in the worst-case scenarios possible. If someone puts a gun to your head, if you’re living in a communist country or even if your job doesn’t please you… Nobody can force you do anything you don’t want to. You consider yourself forced only because you do not want to die and suffer or, by case, because you don’t want to starve, or simply want to have some benefits in life, even if the disadvantages are huge.

As I said, those are worst-case scenarios. They’re extremely rare (well apart from the job thing). So imagine what you could do with regular things. With situations much less terrible. Like everyday situations. Like relationships and such.

Everything starts with you… I can’t stress this enough.

Going back to harmony (which, again, naturally, presumes you’re not your own enemy, but more like your friend – not necessarily your best one though as it‘s a question of balance), once achieved it has to be cultivated and sustained. You’re the one who chooses how to do that. Like when you have the time and where you’d like to cultivate it.

Harmony, as my coach would say, is an extremely solid base on which you can build practically anything. And, par example, if you were to build a house, you wouldn’t want to build it on hardly sustained surfaces or at high-risk locations, now would you?

You also have to understand how perception works and that there are things you simply cannot change. You have to understand what it’s like to not get too involved into anything, unless YOU WANT to get involved.

So that was my not so little insight on harmony. Hope it made sense and hope I remember it.